Crossroads

i can't spell when i'm lost, 11"x9", pen and ink on medium-weight white paper

i can't spell when i'm lost, 11"x9", pen and ink on medium-weight white paper

Crossroads

Today I find myself again
wondering hard whether or not
I should take the leap of faith and
never even for once look back.
Like something’s about to happen
while I’m at the crossroads of life;
as the four winds blow on each end,
must I, too, leave my cares behind?
But how did things seem all laden
with a grief that was hard to bear?
And a spirit so disheartened
by the wearying guilt I had!
When did I first feel this burden?
And then I remembered my past,
as farther back I could portend:
the first crossroads I came upon!
That was the time I was given
the chance to be a better me.
But all that glittered and glistened
were only what my eyes could see!
And so my life’s been this since then–
the day I failed my test of faith!
That doomed moment my will weakened
cost me a lifetime of regret!
Then again all of a sudden,
another crossroads fast appeared!
This time waiting still as a friend
telling everyone not to fear!
So I gazed up into heaven
as I took one more step forward,
praying to keep my lessons learned
close to my heart all through this path!
So again it has been proven
that not all who fall fail always–
the farthest away sins are turned,
crossroads become paradises!

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Life’s a maze

heartsamaze, 9"x12", marker on Aquabee Super Deluxe 93-lb Sketch paper

heartsamaze, 9"x12", marker on Aquabee Super Deluxe 93-lb Sketch paper

Life is complicated, no doubt about it! And love? Oh, boy, even more so! Which perhaps explains why when someone is heartbroken, his/her life as a whole gets affected, too, in the process.
I see love relationships in particular as somewhat akin to mazes. At times I can see clearly the path ahead, while in some instances I get turned back by an immovable wall! But whatever challenges or obstructions lie ahead, my objective is to find a way to move forward toward a prized goal! I am motivated by the belief that there is always a way to make wrong things right. And this is exactly “the way”– the one and only correct path– upon which I set out to take. Life is a labyrinth of hits and misses, successes and failures. But if I learn consistently from my mistakes, I’m hopeful I’ll make my life easier by growing up wiser.
I like to think that I am Sam, Robert De Niro’s character in the 1998 movie, Ronin. In one scene, Deirdre (the character played by Natascha McElhone), upon seeing Sam retrieving his gun which he previously hid behind some crates, asked him, “What exactly were you doin’ back here?” To which Sam replied, “Lady, I never walk into a place I don’t know how to walk out of.” (Yeah! That’s what I’m talkin’ about!) 😀
Well, I drew the maze above in the form of a heart. Partly because whenever I think of relationships, I also think about confusion. 🙂 But mostly, I used the symbolism of a heart to affirm that while love may be a mystery to some, it is also, without a shadow of a doubt, a miracle to most!

The maze is very simple. I drew it rather easily, so it shouldn’t prove any more puzzling than what it appears to be. All you have to do is choose which entrance, in your opinion, will take you from one side of the heart to the other side and then back! The important thing is you must complete your chosen route– without doubling back and, of course, uninterrupted– by also coming out of the entry point from which you came in before. And, you have to be able to read the message spelled out along the route. Good luck!

Corazon C. Aquino (1933-2009)

Rest in peace, Pres. Cory! And may GOD Bless your soul forever!!! Thank you so much, Cory!!! (please click on pic to link to Cory's site!)

August 1st, 2009, is a very sad day in my homeland, the Philippines. For on this day, former President Corazon C. Aquino (the eleventh president to lead my country, from 1986 to 1992) died after her bout with cancer. She was 76 years old.
This humble blog offers its sincerest prayers, sympathies and condolences to her entire family.
No doubt there will be countless outpouring of tributes that will be made in her name. And through this post, I would also like to pay my deepest respect to honor her memory.
The very first time I exercised my right to vote was in college, waaay back in 1986 during the so-called snap presidential election (announced by then incumbent president, the late Ferdinand E. Marcos). This was to determine who actually wielded true control of the country, as numerous mass actions were being staged virtually everywhere following the 1983 assassination of Cory’s husband, Benigno Aquino, Jr. It would prove to be the catalyst for meaningful events unprecedented in Philippine politics! And I am proud of myself, even until now, that I was one of those people who supported Cory’s run for the presidency. Needless to say, during those tumultuous times when yellow reigned as the symbolic color of change, with still an impressionable young mind that bordered mostly on activism, I voted for her as my president. I had nary a doubt nor regret about my decision! In fact, looking back at that time, I recalled feeling larger than life, a young man who believed he made the wisest of choices! And I wasn’t wrong either! Because Cory Aquino ultimately won that election. This would culminate in the famous four days in February of 1986 (from the 22nd to the 25th), collectively and popularly known as the peaceful People Power Revolution, abruptly ending the 20-year regime of Ferdinand Marcos! And the rest, as they say, is history!
In hindsight, Cory’s six-year term as president was replete with enormous challenges, both from natural calamities (the 1990 earthquake, the 1991 Pinatubo eruption, and the Ormoc City flooding from typhoon Uring, also in 1991) and political upheavals, most notably the seven coup attempts against her government. But none of these would bring her down from her rule that was rightfully– and democratically– empowered in her! It was also during her six-year term that a new Philippine Constitution was enacted, replacing the erstwhile 1973 Martial-Law-penned constitution.
In all the years since running and winning the snap election, to serving her full term as president, to her post-presidency years, and even until her last days, she displayed the same integrity, honesty, humility, love of country, devotion to duty, strength of character, and God-fearing nature that made her the first duly-elected woman-president of the Republic of the Philippines and Time Magazine’s 1986 “Woman of the Year,” as well as one of the 20 Most Influential Asians of the 20th century!
She was just a simple housewife, who– in her desire to continue the legacy of her husband Ninoy’s firm belief that “the Filipino is worth dying for”– happened to be the country’s president for a mere six years and gave back to her people the democracy that was repressed for twenty years!
(Now, if you are someone who is eyeing the presidency, or any political position, but wants in earnest to fiddle with the Constitution and transform it back to the rule of regime that you fought so hard for to get out from in the first place, then you ought to think twice! Clearly, you’re missing the goal! With such self-interest, you can’t possibly lead a country all too mired in distrust with leadership and expect to bring it back to the glory days after EDSA ’86, when hope was fuel enough to rebuild a nation. Because, come to think of it: How can you see the light and relive this hope when, because of ulterior motive and vested interests, you can’t hold a candle to Cory’s nobility of purpose??!)