My girlfriend once asked me what, in my opinion, is the greatest miracle in my life. And, although I didn’t have an easy answer for her at that time, I knew in my heart that it’s got to be love. But which kind of love? Is it the kind of loving that I give to others– my family, in particular? Or the love that I receive from them and other people? I was inclined to reply with both kinds of love. But accepting that as it is somehow masks the meaning of miracle. The Free Dictionary defines miracle as “an event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God.” The way I see it, I ought to receive love because I give love. Yes, it makes perfect sense, even though there’s hardly a miracle I’m seeing there. After all, it is The Golden Rule exemplified here, a realization of the causality relationship between cause and effect events. But since I also believe that it is already my Christian duty to love my fellowman, then loving, in this sense, must no longer be an inexplicable nor a supernatural act. Instead, it becomes an integral part of my nature, manifested without or with little difficulty into a course for expression. I should, therefore, not find it an impossible task anymore to love anyone. Suddenly, what seems like a miracle becomes an easily attainable regularity. All things considered, an even more baffling reality would be one’s inability to love and, yet, still be loved! Reflecting on this gave me the answer I was searching for– that the greatest miracle in my life is that someone still loves me, in spite of who I am! Because, whether I know how to love or not, the fact that a person loves me proves the truth that love, once it wells up, can flow freely from one’s heart into my own– abundantly! And it doesn’t expect anything in return! That is where the greatness of this miracle exists– that it is true and it is happening, despite my mind saying otherwise! This I understood even better when I realized that God loves me unconditionally even if I don’t love Him back enough!
Truly, when one believes in God, a miracle always happens! Even when it feels like the whole world is on your shoulder, when everyone seems to hate you, there is always someone who surely still loves you without fail and without equal: God! And He will never leave you nor forsake you! Now, if that isn’t the greatest miracle in one’s life, I don’t know what is!

This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.” 1 John 4:10 (NIV)


old sketches

Here are some old sketches that I did way back in the ’90s. They are all sketches from pictures that I found interesting in whatever magazines or newspapers I could lay my hands on at that time. Being self-taught, that was how I practiced my eye-hand coordination skills– by copying from pictures and judging how closely I could get a likeness by using as few strokes as possible. My reasoning was, if I could nail a convincingly pretty close copy by accurately drawing the contours of the major facial features (like the correct placement and shapes of eyes, nose, mouth, etc.), then the rendering or dimensional shaping and forming of the drawing by way of shadings, shadows and highlights would easily follow. (all drawings were done on regular 11″x8.5″ copy paper using charcoal and graphite.)

Alberto Breccia

artists all

Audrey Hepburn


Holly Golightly

Audrey Hepburn

Wes Studi

love evolves

love evolves as eros errs

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Above is a Neil Gaiman quote that I found on the web. And though it’s about the painful side of loving, I agree with it nonetheless and personally feel that it’s true because I had experienced the same kind of pain before. More so, the eros kind of love that seems to always expect something in return is a very fickle and insecure emotion. Even then, people still fall right into it. Ahh, but what can humans do about it? After all, it’s an alluring way to experience and appreciate the challenges in life as one grows and matures with time. Besides, feeling the hurt in a relationship may just teach one to learn by heart the selfless-giving kind of Christian love which is agape. In this kind of love, one offers his or her whole self unconditionally to others, exactly as Christ had done for humankind! If one can give till it hurts, then that person is just a heartbeat away from this ultimate, self-sacrificing kind of love! Yes, it’s attainable, of course! One only needs to live faithfully like so until he/she passes away from this world and into eternal life. Because in the end, this person would have proven well enough that the moment he/she decided to live like Christ, his/her life in effect became just one longer deed of Christian love– however trying along the way it might have been– and culminating with self-offering at the moment he/she returns to his/her Maker!
And in both retrospect and foresight, I somehow empathize with those who have experienced some terrible hurt caused by betrayal from their self-centered partners. Because only from these emotionally draining pains can one be tempered to forge ahead into becoming more resilient against the blows that invariably lie ahead! These are the kind of people who are capable of loving anyone selflessly! GOD Bless them all always!!!

My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.” –John 15:12-13 (New International Version)

love is laying down your life for others

i l♥ve y♥u !!!


A Most Blessed Merry Christmas to everyone!!!

GOD Bless you all always!!!

Panic Attack!

I was reading the news on BBC’s site when I came across this article about a YouTube video of a short sci-fi film from Uruguayan director Fede Alvarez. The short film is so technically impressive and well-crafted that Mr. Alvarez was eventually offered a US$30-million Hollywood contract to make a full-length movie! The YouTube-uploaded video is entitled “Ataque de Panico!” (Panic Attack!) and is about giant robots invading Uruguay’s capital of Montevideo! While the concept may seem trite already, considering the slew of sci-fi movies we’d been seeing of late (“Transformers” and “2012” come to mind, and just this week, the new movie, “Avatar”), this one seems to be bucking the odds in that it is not Hollywood-produced and was made with only US$300 in budget! What is actually striking about the whole thing is the fact that this short film seems to conjure up the unlikely combination of a grand-scale production and a ridiculously tight budget! And yet the quality of the shots, directing and effects is astounding! The short film is only 4 minutes, 48 seconds long. But if Mr. Alvarez can sustain this level of technical skill and fine-tune it for transformation into a full feature film, Hollywood may yet have another top-notch creative director in its midst! Check it out and see for yourself why Fede Alvarez‘ work is receiving a lot of favorable responses from movie buffs everywhere!

i love you, that’s why